I am officially on vacation!

I am taking a 30 day sabbatical from readings and work.   This will be my last post for about a month guys.  Keep your head above water and remember to be thankful for the little things.  See you all in 30 days!

Namastae

Humility versus Humiliation

A few weeks ago I had a client with a really hard reading.  I struggled like I haven’t in a very long time.  Contrary to popular belief, these visions and intuitive words during reading interpretations do not just flow like a river.  We do need to meditate and concentrate on listening to the cards.  But for this particular reading I was in conflict.  So much so I sat there and looked at these cards for at least 3 days.  Normally for a life reading this is not unusual.  The unusual part was the actual interpretation.  While half of me felt the discomfort and chaos of the true meaning, the literal interpretations were giving mixed signals.  So the actual reading itself I felt [and my client] was truly half incorrect.  This did not help her at all.

I am a firm believer in matching the right psychic for your needs.  Some of us will not be able to read for you at all, while others can.  I am not correct in every reading, this is one of the main points before I get too off topic.  The next point was humiliation.  I did feel humiliation because I was wrong.  In direct opposition of my truest intent to help and based on the founding principals of my business and nature, I could not help her.  I was wrong.  This was a source of sadness for me.  I spent several days after wondering what happened and where the lesson was in all of it.  Once I figured out and linked the lesson, I was left to deal with the emotional aspect of it, hence humiliation.

In hindsight, I believe humiliation is way too strong of an emotion to attribute to the reading.  It is a lesson, and the client projected kindness.  I did what I thought was morally and ethically correct for my own purpose, and refunded and restructured the reading with the client.  This gave me peace, and I hope it gave her some as well.  I have downgraded the emotion to disappointment with solid learning and lesson truth, which made me actually feel so much better.   In turn I learned something about my business, my tarot, my abilities, and myself.

Be kind to yourself, remove the ego, and lose the drama.  I have that embedded in my brain now.  And life goes on

Quotes from Lao Tzu

Greed is expensive.
Hoarders are destined to for a great loss.

A content person will not be disgraced.
A person that knows when to stop is in no danger.

-Lao Tzu

Todays Inspiration comes from Gelena

Hi Sonic,

Just wanted to say hello (my guides to yours and see how you are doing? I’m constantly impressed by how you seem to walk both the awake world of spirits and the world of us restless sleepers without losing your perspective. Mine is that of a bird visiting a fish’s body (must be some karma at work there), trying to remember how to fly while surrounded by a world of water.

Gelena

My response:
My dearest friend,

I lose my perspective ALL the time lol. I am more unbalanced than a lump of wet dough waiting to be kneaded heeheehee. But I thank you for your kind words and consideration. I find being human an impossible task. Once more it is the cruelties of the human race within this space and time I cannot come to terms with. With much sadness and melancholy does the world revolve on a daily basis with one small wish and hope of making it a better day or a better life for someone with just a word or two. You have given me these today and for that I am indeed grateful.

All my best

S

Her final response:

Lol! You’re a delight, truly. But a lump of wet dough does have a lot of potential, and it’s quite cohesive from the combination of all its unbalanced parts. So maybe your lack of balance is what makes you want to rise. All metaphors aside, I know what you mean about the human condition…

“…And I tried to be as pure as possible to combat all the dirtiness everywhere. Not in the religious sense, but just being, breathing through the pain and the heaviness and the impossible loss of human potential. And it kind of worked, even though my daily drudgery was completely at odds with my spiritual lightness. But maybe that’s why we’re here. To channel the hardness into lightness,even if it’s within ourselves. In a dark world your light shines a long way, you should take as much comfort in it as I and countless others do…light is light after all, even if it’s yours…but I’m sure you know that better than most :)”

Thank you for bringing a smile to my face my friend

Namastae

Tarot readings-everyone is different

Contrary to what most people believe, reading tarot for people changes with the individual.  The gifts do not come in the same form time after time.  I do not hear the same words reading after reading.  Sometimes I am given so much more information from the Divine for client A.  While client B gets such a quiet response I could almost hear crickets chirping.  I have also postponed readings until further notice if my gut says ‘nah this isn’t right’ and just put the cards away.  I can’t tell you how it works or why it works, just that it most certainly does work!

One card can provide a lot of information for someone.  While 10 cards can paint a years worth of path canvas.  It all depends on what you want it to do.  The standing joke with my significant other is “you gotta want it!” and then we laugh miserably at each other but it holds some truth.   You have got to want it

Namastae

Good people have bad days too

I think San Diego, California calls the entire month of June “June Gloom”.  It’s the rainy month I suppose.  The Midwest has been devoid of Sun for months now, stuck under a blanket of cold [below zero at many times], ice, snow, and moisture.  Combine normal weather [normal for us anyway], lack of sun, personal tragedy and hyper sensitivity in the work place and you have a wonderful recipe for depression and disaster.  I had my cards read by 3 different people last night.  A forecast of things to come for April, May and June.  One card readings are always my favorite.  There is no need for multiple card readings as they often deplete too much of my energy when I’m doing inquiries for myself in trades.

So back to my point.  All 3 of these individuals used different decks, but basically pulled the same 3 spreads for me.  April is a time of renewed energy and projects.  May is a time for rest, and June is a time for solitude.  I do need a rest I have a lot going on right now.  There are many important [in my life] people that depend on me.  Getting too big for my britches is commonplace.  I have not learned to separate ego from myself yet.  I am aware, I do strive for it and I go through long month spurts where you will not see it at all.  And yet, in all of my gluttony there it is. The one day I need it least.  It often causes my foot to go right into my mouth!  Mainly at work.

I participate and share this blog for one reason alone.  Well two now that I think of it.  The first is obvious-it is for self expression of ideas.  The second purely and truly is for your own inspiration.  What good is a thought if it cannot be shared?  What purpose does good intent serve if it is not given freely?  None I dare say.  But do not be fooled good people.  I am mean, egotistic, vein, brash, overbearing, controlling and trite!

I spent time in exhaustive meditation last night [because I was too tired to consciously have a thought myself] on all of this.  The reminder I need is this.  No matter how much I try no matter how good the intent, some days I am just a Bitch.  That is it!  I am human.  I wish I was more than just part of the species but I AM human and I am learning.  I stumble, I fall, I get back up and I keep walking.  That is all I can do.  Thank you for walking with me though.  It fills me with pure joy knowing there is at least one other human reading my blog that understands and appreciates the ramblings of this lawn gnome.

Namastae

Just say no to yourself-enough is enough

Good morning,

I am noticing a trend with people that give of themselves. These are kind souls that continually pay it forward. I believe giving is quite infectious and a drug within itself. There is nothing wrong with wanting to give and give and give. But the trend [especially in forums] is for the recipient to post an itemized list of what they got. It seems they get longer and longer. I am in the process of sending things to people myself and last night I caught myself saying “well if I only had x amount of paper or x type of wrapping, I’m not quite done yet” etc etc. The truth of the matter is, I AM done. I don’t care if it is a crystal, a book, a piece of chocolate or a plastic button that I want to send. When you are done, you’re done. It is not the size of the gift that matters. It is not the item within the wrapping that matters either. The intent is the ONLY thing that should matter. Having said that, I know when to say when and thank the universe for all gifts, graces and charms bestowed upon me in this lifetime.

Namastae my friends, may you live to see another sunrise and sunset :love:

Praying and Meditation

Praying means to actually speak.  Meditation means you are listening.  Some people do an awful lot of talking and forget to listen.  Others do a lot of listening but forget they have a voice to be heard.  Open your mouths people and speak to whomever you wish to hear you.  Human, Diety, the Cosmos, whomever, just use your voice.

At work today I had sent a request to one of our vendors.   He got back to me apologizing for not being able to fulfill my request due to his son recently going ‘back into’ pediatric ICU.  Can you imagine that?  This poor man worrying about the state of his young sons condition is trying to piece together his normality by keeping up with the 9-5 work flow in between bed visits.  No profession in the world needs tending except for the parental one you took on when your kids were born.

So in your daily meditation AND prayer today, keep in mind this young child and send him some good thoughts.  Send his dad some as well, we could all use the extra good joo joo at the end of the day.

Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen my friends

Infectious Karma

There is no stronger drug in the world, than good karma. If you disagree with that statement it simply means you have not been the giver or receiver of truly precious unconditional kindness. While I need to continually remind myself not to give away ‘the farm’ I [you] must also realize that we have so much more than millions of people. We are warm, fed, clothed, sheltered and loved. None of that includes material items or monetary value. I profess I am permanently attached to the world wide web and am never far from any of my emails. I carry two cell phones, own 4 pc’s [personal and work] and drive a nice car. Do not be deceived I have worked extraordinarily hard for any item in my current possession [because items come and go]. But there is a difference between hording material items and being able to enjoy ones successes. If you continue to give away such items you truly love you continually make room for the universe to bestow other gifts and graciousness upon you. I am not giving away my possessions if that’s what you think. Simply offering you one way to experience the infectious karma. All empires can be reduced to a grain of sand.

p.s. I forgot to mention, this post was inspired by Gelena. She writes “you are a karmic rock star”. I got the greatest kick out of that. Thank you for your kindnesses.

Namastae

The vibrational movement of sound

I no longer fool myself into believing that I am your average every day ‘normal’ person.  I’ve known for many years I was different, and I am ok with this.  This does not mean that when something out of the ordinary happens it does not rock my world.  Last night I opened the window for the first time in months.  The temperature is finally warming up and I enjoyed the fresh air.  I hear the vertical blinds swishing and clanking next to one another and this does not phase me.  I then slept a good long while, only to be awoken by the same blinds.  It was a peaceful transition from asleep to awake though.  Until about 2 minutes into the blinds ’swishing’ did I realize I was listening to a woman whispering in what I think was elvish.  The words continued until I stopped the blinds.

My eyes were open as I starred at the ceiling trying to muster the energy to get up and do something as I normally do in the middle of the night.  I do not ’sleep’ for long durations.  I take 4 and 5 hour naps at a time.  I slept 8 hours throughout the night once last year and even that was only because I was on medication.  I thought it odd of course and went back to sleep.  It moved me enough to write about it though.  I know that blogs are meant to serve a personal purpose, but I do attempt to cause thought provocation as a result of my posts.  I will just start a research list and go from there.  Tibet, now elvish.

Sound  travels through many mediums.  There is no doubt in my mind that there is decipherable language in any audible sound we encounter in this lifetime.  The question is, how do you get yourself to the point of being able to distinguish it, question yourself on what it was, and motivate yourself to find out exactly what was said?  That is the next step.

Namastae