Solitude with Deepak Chopra

I know it sounds like a breakfast cereal. But in circles of faith and wisdom he comes highly recommended. A few months ago in the bitter cold of January I started cleaning out my metaphysical closet. I was giving away books, crystals, and divination tools that I had held onto for years in hopes of following the tao te ching practices of releasing material wealth. Well, this completely opened up my life for new and better teaching materials. My aunt Lorraine gave me two large bags of reading materials, and this book was one of the items. It’s called “The Path to Love” by Deepak Chopra.

I have lost yet another family member within the past few months [this being the third, three years in a row now] and life once again in it’s cyclical fashion is just a bitch. I’m tired of the sadness and grief and burden that death brings to the remaining few of us left here to deal with aftermath. As a result of his passing I have come to the conclusion that mourning is a selfish act. It’s part of human make up, but unless a lesson is learned from it, it will repeat itself in a selfish manner and wear us down. I have chosen not to take that route this time, and I am truly thankful he is gone. No human should suffer with illness. No creature of God should suffer period, even if they deserve it, but that’s another blog in and of itself.

So I am finding myself at another crossroads as far as knowledge and teaching is concerned. This, coupled with past winter blues, and a brief but ever so influential scuffle on a tarot forum with judgmental negative ignorance [your basic board/forum no life post daily trolls] has left me in limbo.

I picked the book back up today and opened it to the page I had left off. This is what it said “Spirituality begins with a vision, but reality doesn’t fit that vision. The path is what brings them together. Most people who want to experience inner growth begin as Nina did, by reading the vast inspirational literature. They become discontented with the distance between their own lives and the enlightened existence they discover in their readings; they start to make a break [hence my vacation]. Yet after the break nothing seems to really change. The haunting insecurity and loneliness, the sense of confusion and conflict are still there. But instead of feeling let down by this “failure”, you need to realize that all spiritual work is done by yourself, with yourself, and for yourself. No one “out there” can take responsibility. It is alright to be aware of the distance between vision and reality, because that is what it feels like to be on the path. If you had no gaps to close, you wouldn’t need the path”.

Well isn’t that just a kick in the ass? I am enrolling myself into an intensive 9 month class for higher learning. Break time is over.

Namastae

This is worth writing about

I know I know I am on vacation I get it. But that doesn’t mean I stop reading world news. I may not watch it, but I read everything. This particular story is worth discussing. Mainly because a picture is worth a thousand words. The scientists and logical ones are all welcome to participate and negate everything they see touch smell taste and hear. Have at it! But THIS story about seeing Jesus in glass at a local Orlando Hospital is not uncommon.  People FEEL and see spiritual things throughout their entire lives.  This dimension is peppered with unexplained phenomena of good in the garden of evil.  Open your eyes for Christ sake!  It is EVERYWHERE.  Your guides, ghosts, energies, whatever you cannot explain.  Things beyond human present day explanation.  Things deep seated in our conscious histories.  It’s like connective tissue weaving the fabric of time.

It’s all about faith.  Faith in what?  Faith in the Divine.  Do you have it?  Do you use it?  Do you ever consciously THINK about it?  Change your reality.  Perception is everything.  WHAT do you perceive exists and gets you through the day?  Certainly not food water or basic physical needs.  Faith ya’ll, just faith.

Namastae

I am officially on vacation!

I am taking a 30 day sabbatical from readings and work.   This will be my last post for about a month guys.  Keep your head above water and remember to be thankful for the little things.  See you all in 30 days!

Namastae

Humility versus Humiliation

A few weeks ago I had a client with a really hard reading.  I struggled like I haven’t in a very long time.  Contrary to popular belief, these visions and intuitive words during reading interpretations do not just flow like a river.  We do need to meditate and concentrate on listening to the cards.  But for this particular reading I was in conflict.  So much so I sat there and looked at these cards for at least 3 days.  Normally for a life reading this is not unusual.  The unusual part was the actual interpretation.  While half of me felt the discomfort and chaos of the true meaning, the literal interpretations were giving mixed signals.  So the actual reading itself I felt [and my client] was truly half incorrect.  This did not help her at all.

I am a firm believer in matching the right psychic for your needs.  Some of us will not be able to read for you at all, while others can.  I am not correct in every reading, this is one of the main points before I get too off topic.  The next point was humiliation.  I did feel humiliation because I was wrong.  In direct opposition of my truest intent to help and based on the founding principals of my business and nature, I could not help her.  I was wrong.  This was a source of sadness for me.  I spent several days after wondering what happened and where the lesson was in all of it.  Once I figured out and linked the lesson, I was left to deal with the emotional aspect of it, hence humiliation.

In hindsight, I believe humiliation is way too strong of an emotion to attribute to the reading.  It is a lesson, and the client projected kindness.  I did what I thought was morally and ethically correct for my own purpose, and refunded and restructured the reading with the client.  This gave me peace, and I hope it gave her some as well.  I have downgraded the emotion to disappointment with solid learning and lesson truth, which made me actually feel so much better.   In turn I learned something about my business, my tarot, my abilities, and myself.

Be kind to yourself, remove the ego, and lose the drama.  I have that embedded in my brain now.  And life goes on

Quotes from Lao Tzu

Greed is expensive.
Hoarders are destined to for a great loss.

A content person will not be disgraced.
A person that knows when to stop is in no danger.

-Lao Tzu

Todays Inspiration comes from Gelena

Hi Sonic,

Just wanted to say hello (my guides to yours and see how you are doing? I’m constantly impressed by how you seem to walk both the awake world of spirits and the world of us restless sleepers without losing your perspective. Mine is that of a bird visiting a fish’s body (must be some karma at work there), trying to remember how to fly while surrounded by a world of water.

Gelena

My response:
My dearest friend,

I lose my perspective ALL the time lol. I am more unbalanced than a lump of wet dough waiting to be kneaded heeheehee. But I thank you for your kind words and consideration. I find being human an impossible task. Once more it is the cruelties of the human race within this space and time I cannot come to terms with. With much sadness and melancholy does the world revolve on a daily basis with one small wish and hope of making it a better day or a better life for someone with just a word or two. You have given me these today and for that I am indeed grateful.

All my best

S

Her final response:

Lol! You’re a delight, truly. But a lump of wet dough does have a lot of potential, and it’s quite cohesive from the combination of all its unbalanced parts. So maybe your lack of balance is what makes you want to rise. All metaphors aside, I know what you mean about the human condition…

“…And I tried to be as pure as possible to combat all the dirtiness everywhere. Not in the religious sense, but just being, breathing through the pain and the heaviness and the impossible loss of human potential. And it kind of worked, even though my daily drudgery was completely at odds with my spiritual lightness. But maybe that’s why we’re here. To channel the hardness into lightness,even if it’s within ourselves. In a dark world your light shines a long way, you should take as much comfort in it as I and countless others do…light is light after all, even if it’s yours…but I’m sure you know that better than most :)”

Thank you for bringing a smile to my face my friend

Namastae

Tarot readings-everyone is different

Contrary to what most people believe, reading tarot for people changes with the individual.  The gifts do not come in the same form time after time.  I do not hear the same words reading after reading.  Sometimes I am given so much more information from the Divine for client A.  While client B gets such a quiet response I could almost hear crickets chirping.  I have also postponed readings until further notice if my gut says ‘nah this isn’t right’ and just put the cards away.  I can’t tell you how it works or why it works, just that it most certainly does work!

One card can provide a lot of information for someone.  While 10 cards can paint a years worth of path canvas.  It all depends on what you want it to do.  The standing joke with my significant other is “you gotta want it!” and then we laugh miserably at each other but it holds some truth.   You have got to want it

Namastae

Good people have bad days too

I think San Diego, California calls the entire month of June “June Gloom”.  It’s the rainy month I suppose.  The Midwest has been devoid of Sun for months now, stuck under a blanket of cold [below zero at many times], ice, snow, and moisture.  Combine normal weather [normal for us anyway], lack of sun, personal tragedy and hyper sensitivity in the work place and you have a wonderful recipe for depression and disaster.  I had my cards read by 3 different people last night.  A forecast of things to come for April, May and June.  One card readings are always my favorite.  There is no need for multiple card readings as they often deplete too much of my energy when I’m doing inquiries for myself in trades.

So back to my point.  All 3 of these individuals used different decks, but basically pulled the same 3 spreads for me.  April is a time of renewed energy and projects.  May is a time for rest, and June is a time for solitude.  I do need a rest I have a lot going on right now.  There are many important [in my life] people that depend on me.  Getting too big for my britches is commonplace.  I have not learned to separate ego from myself yet.  I am aware, I do strive for it and I go through long month spurts where you will not see it at all.  And yet, in all of my gluttony there it is. The one day I need it least.  It often causes my foot to go right into my mouth!  Mainly at work.

I participate and share this blog for one reason alone.  Well two now that I think of it.  The first is obvious-it is for self expression of ideas.  The second purely and truly is for your own inspiration.  What good is a thought if it cannot be shared?  What purpose does good intent serve if it is not given freely?  None I dare say.  But do not be fooled good people.  I am mean, egotistic, vein, brash, overbearing, controlling and trite!

I spent time in exhaustive meditation last night [because I was too tired to consciously have a thought myself] on all of this.  The reminder I need is this.  No matter how much I try no matter how good the intent, some days I am just a Bitch.  That is it!  I am human.  I wish I was more than just part of the species but I AM human and I am learning.  I stumble, I fall, I get back up and I keep walking.  That is all I can do.  Thank you for walking with me though.  It fills me with pure joy knowing there is at least one other human reading my blog that understands and appreciates the ramblings of this lawn gnome.

Namastae

Just say no to yourself-enough is enough

Good morning,

I am noticing a trend with people that give of themselves. These are kind souls that continually pay it forward. I believe giving is quite infectious and a drug within itself. There is nothing wrong with wanting to give and give and give. But the trend [especially in forums] is for the recipient to post an itemized list of what they got. It seems they get longer and longer. I am in the process of sending things to people myself and last night I caught myself saying “well if I only had x amount of paper or x type of wrapping, I’m not quite done yet” etc etc. The truth of the matter is, I AM done. I don’t care if it is a crystal, a book, a piece of chocolate or a plastic button that I want to send. When you are done, you’re done. It is not the size of the gift that matters. It is not the item within the wrapping that matters either. The intent is the ONLY thing that should matter. Having said that, I know when to say when and thank the universe for all gifts, graces and charms bestowed upon me in this lifetime.

Namastae my friends, may you live to see another sunrise and sunset :love:

Praying and Meditation

Praying means to actually speak.  Meditation means you are listening.  Some people do an awful lot of talking and forget to listen.  Others do a lot of listening but forget they have a voice to be heard.  Open your mouths people and speak to whomever you wish to hear you.  Human, Diety, the Cosmos, whomever, just use your voice.

At work today I had sent a request to one of our vendors.   He got back to me apologizing for not being able to fulfill my request due to his son recently going ‘back into’ pediatric ICU.  Can you imagine that?  This poor man worrying about the state of his young sons condition is trying to piece together his normality by keeping up with the 9-5 work flow in between bed visits.  No profession in the world needs tending except for the parental one you took on when your kids were born.

So in your daily meditation AND prayer today, keep in mind this young child and send him some good thoughts.  Send his dad some as well, we could all use the extra good joo joo at the end of the day.

Hon Sha Ze Sho Nen my friends