Head Injuries

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ideas, illness manifestation, intentions good or bad

In 2005 I took a spill down a flight of stairs in my parents home very early in the am.  Now you may be wondering how a lawn gnome could miss a step, being so close to the ground and all.  The truth is, I missed 2 of them.  My foot went straight for the landing while being 2 stairs higher.  My head hit the floor and I passed out.  Thankfully no one was home.  I woke up flat on my back on the basement floor and I was disoriented.  I crawled to the bathroom and was sick instantly.  After a few rounds of ick [not going into detail here folks] I managed to crawl my way back upstairs, call in sick, and I went back to bed.  I took 2 tylenol and went to sleep for 7 hours.  After I awoke, I was sore but fine and didn’t think anything of it.  Don’t you think that if a human being hit their head on concrete hard enough to pass out, there would be some kind of damage there?  Bleeding?  anything?  You would think so right????  I would.  So what happened?  Nothing.  Nothing happened.  I am reading about famous people in the news today, and how parents around the world were alerted to this odd condition of brain bleeding if you are in an accident.

There are some things in this life that are within your control.  You have a choice of when it is your time to go and how it happens.  I hope you realize this.  You’ve already written it in your chart.  Your life was mapped out from the minute you got back.  This isn’t the end all be all finite lifetime of existance.  It’s one very small scratch on the surface of humanity and the cosmos.  There are other dimensions woven into our own, and we are all one big part of this cosmic flow.  Every thing you see, and everything you do not see has energy.  I’m going off on a tangent but my point is this.  I hit the concrete hard enough to knock myself OUT.  There had to be some kind of damage there.  And what happened?  Nothing….an idea is born when you give it life, and not until such time.  Good or bad.

Food for thought kids..

Good morning

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irony of life, living for the moment, no regrets

Welcome to the first day of the rest of your life.  Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not guarenteed so make it count.  Suck it up and do something you’ve been dreaming of.  What are you waiting for?  A personal invitation from God?  No regrets, no second chances.  How is today going to count?

Did you know that death is one way of giving the greatest gift of life?  Think about it.. seasons, organ donation, harvesting the physical vessel after the soul is done with it.  So much irony in this dimension.  Now go get your morning coffee and be inspired to do something you dream.

Namastae

A soul, free will, and miscarriages

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miscarriage, reincarnation

The Christians believe a new life [a newly fertlizied embryo] has a soul.  Most agree that life begins at conception, and not when a heartbeat is detected at 18 or 25 days, or when brain waves are recorded as early as 43 days. Life has a very distinct beginning and is not the result of a gradual process of change and evolution over time.  Before I get the Christians and medical science in an uproar, there is a point to all of this.  It’s called free will.  Every living creature on this earth has free will.  That life you are carrying inside of you has it’s own free will.  When this particular soul made a deal with you to be his/her mother in this lifetime and reincarnate in the here and now, you must realize they too have free will.  Just as they did in making this contract with you, they also have free will to stay or leave.  Let the scientists tell you anything they want.  That your bodies own immune system rejected the egg from attaching to the uterine wall, hence miscarrying the life form.  It was nothing you did, nothing you could have done, nor did you have  any control over this life form.  They being of their own free will decided this lifetime was not for them.  For whatever reason, you and they both chose to make this bond/contract and fulfill each others request here.  There is no blame, there is no fault, and there is no “medical” reason you “lost” this life form.

For the past several months I have encountered an alarming and increasing number of women that have “lost” their child during the first three months of pregnancy.  I do not dare share this information with them.  As a human, you would have to see past the guilt, shame, remorse, anger and acceptance of this change in order to see my explination clearly.  It is entirely too heavy a topic to discuss with a new mother that has had her joy taken away from her.  The next time you hear or encounter a similar situation I ask that you remember this passage and think outside the box.  This is just one life of many and you are here for a reason.  Every experience brings humility, joy and learning.

Namastae

“Why men love bitches”

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co-dependency, couple communication, relationship behavior, Sherry Argov, why men love bitches

I was recently told about this book called “Why men love bitches”. As far as human behavior goes, I soak in as much knowledge as I can. One of my continuing quests here is to find out why people act the way they do. The divine can only spoon feed so much. You must make the effort to put yourself out there and explore. After I picked up the book at Borders I headed home and kicked up my feet with a cup of tea. After I started reading page after page after page flipping fast and furiously, I found myself making the following comments. “Yep..did that..yep…that’s me..yes that’s me..mmhhmm..nope never did that, no way won’t do that..yep thats so and so.. yep she keeps doing that and that and that”. Half way through the book I put it down and I highly doubt I’ll pick it up again. It is the “how to” manual for playing games with one another. And while I whole heartedly agree with her explanation of the reasoning a woman would behave certain ways, the underlying theme [which is ALWAYS unhealthy] seemed to be portrayed as a sign of weakness. So if a woman that continually calls a man is looking for security and reassurance, why is that person regarded as weak and co-dependent? Shouldn’t we be focusing on the underlying problem and how to make ourselves well rather than capitalizing on the how to be a royal bitch guide? I admit if you can find a way to make money legally on this earth at the expense of others who am I to judge you regardless of what it is as long as it hurts none. A fool and his money are soon parted. I know this! In a nutshell the book provides a behavioral tool to mask your own issues and insecurities. What does that say about the author? That she herself had become so jaded of an individual that she deemed herself qualified to share this infinite wisdom with women of the world. Gee, aren’t we lucky? Can you feel the sarcasm dripping from this post?

People, communicate until there is nothing left to give. Go within to find out why you are the way you are. Don’t be fooled into believing such behavior will make your world so much better. Why would you mask one behavior with another? Do you think at the end of the day when you lay your head on your pillow that you’re so much more ahead of the game? Did you notice the word? GAME. Don’t do it, don’t even think about it. Remove yourself as one of the pawns and do your own thing. Don’t waste your precious energy, it’s not worth it.

Understand yourself

Love yourself

Be happy with YOURSELF

Before you attempt to be happy with others

Namastae

Todays Inspiration

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brenden foster, childrens hope

This is the most remarkable soul.. I hope you gather peace and inspiration from this little boy.

Brenden Foster’s wish

Living the Tao Te Ching

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lao tzu, life opportunity, season of change

Every day is a struggle or a challenge.  The news is depressing isn’t it?  The world is filled with ugly hateful misrepresentation.  And yet, we must strive for balance.  I do not watch the news.  I cannot allow such hatred or depression seep into my own reality.  I keep up with current events, I do not engage in political conversation and I steer clear of moral debate.  It works for me, and may or may not work for you.  But what I need to continually remind my clients, is that every day is a new opportunity.  Every sunrise and sunset you are able to see brings about hope.  Yesterday was the coldest day by far this season in the Midwest for us.  Well, where I live at least.  And as the icy winds hit my face, I smiled.  The blues and grays across the sky as the collage of color in the trees outside my window struck something inside.  It’s here, change is here again.  Get ready for a big life change..I feel another one coming on.  Instead of turning to a bibliomancy reading [of which I do weekly], I refer to Lao Tzu.

If you don’t realize the source,
you stumble in confusion and sorrow.

When you realize where you come from,
you naturally become tolerant, disinterested,
amused, kindhearted as a grandmother,
dignified as a king.

Immersed in the wonder of the Tao, you can deal
with whatever life brings you, and when death comes
you are ready.

— Lao Tzu

Namastae

Observations before the full moon

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full moon energies

Good morning,

In case you’re wondering why you’re a sensitive emotional mess right now, all you have to do tonight is look up.  The full moon eve is upon us, and things go haywire once or twice a month, it’s not really a surprise to you is it?

I recently connected with a grammar school friend of mine.  She and I have great laughs together.  We’re not bff’s so to speak, but we understand each other and like to laugh and shop.  I have observed her life and what it has become in the last 20 years.  I also noticed that everyone around her spirals out of control.  This in part is due to the common phrase like speaks to like.  In metaphysical terms, you get what you put out.  If you constantly project chaos and confusion, manipulation and guilt, guess what you get back?  There is a lot more to the story, but this is the cliff notes version.  I have made sure to remove myself from any sticky situation she may entangle herself in and it’s good to watch the game on the stands as it passes me by.  That is one time I’ll gladly use the get out of drama free card.

Day dreaming

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lifes mysteries, self-love, talking to god

Yesterday was a long day. I spent most of it running around. I was told that the moon was full last night but from where I was looking I did not see it. So at the end of the day, I opened up my very large bedroom window, propped up the pillows and just stared into the darkness out at my trees and the wooded area not too far. That is my view. I believe everyone should be so fortunate as to have something in life to look at and lose themselves in. I talk to God a lot. I talk to my guides a lot. Last night I was in an especially chatty mood. I gave thanks for the simple things, asked for protection on my friends and family, you know the basics. In a very short time spent at star gazing and gabbing with the Divine, I started to think about who I am and what my role is here. I questioned the amount of hate and harm in this dimension as well as realizing for every bad thing, for every harm done to one person, it is only a 1/10^th of what life is about and that if people could just stop and realize how much beauty there is maybe life wouldn’t be so bad for them.

I questioned why we would choose to reincarnate into a life that appears so dismal at times. Although we all have our own agenda and lessons, this thought process led me to yet another self discovery that I find to be true. We are as individuals composed of the sum of parts and experiences and references of every individual that has touched our lives. Good bad or indifferent, my entire existence is based upon my social ties, familial, friend, social, or romantic. Please do not misunderstand me. I am not saying we turn into our parents [nothing nearly as vague as this]. I am just saying it all leads back to personal choice. It’s a very daunting idea [when you start counting and comparing and realizing all your personal commitments] that every single one of them has left you with yet another puzzle piece to create the road going forward.

I am a gift. Good bad or indifferent, I am a gift. To know me would be to experience something like nothing you’ve ever experienced [never confuse self appreciation and love with ego and vanity-the two are very distinctive]. I have a deeply profound impact on peoples lives. As I watch people float in and out of my life I always wonder and smile about the experience taking with me the best possible part of them as to always surround myself with the good. The human mind is a complete enigma in the metaphysical sense. There are some answers we will just never know. What I have managed to do is erase the bad memories with people I have had less than amicable relations with. Friends and lovers alike. The real key here is that even though I do not remember the act so much any more [this is my way of building the bridge and dropping the baggage at the door] I will always remember the emotion, and the lesson. Fault is a human condition and is married to guilt. Fault and guilt make a great couple don’t they? It is very easy to attribute life’s wrong doings and upsets to one of those crazy kids. It was his fault, but it is her guilt that brings everything to the heat of the moment. I personally no longer subscribe to either of them and do not consider them in any of my social circles. People forget that guilt used to be married to shame. Until she got bored with him and jumped in bed with fault. The couple was so infamous that whenever you hear guilt’s name, shame usually follows behind. Guilt should only be felt when you do something wrong and even then it can be repaired and made right. Never for the choices you’ve made in hopes of bettering yourself or removing yourself from a situation that could be toxic. Shame should in my mind be non existent. That emotion is an instant setup for failure. Shame is based [solely based] on others opinions [and when it comes to opinions about yourself at the end of the day what YOU think about you is the only thing that matters]. Regret is something people do not understand in this life. There are some things you cannot take back, like words. There are actions committed by humans that you cannot reverse as well, such as murder, rape, abuse, cruelty. If you lead a life void of these things, regret should never be uttered from your lips. I have no regrets and I am extremely peaceful about it. I am human remember? I am a complete and utter mess of a woman LOL. I often joke that I am like a train wreck. You just can’t help but watch me as I flyby and derail. But none of it in a bad way. When I was a little girl my friends mother called me the white tornado. Whipped in, whipped out! Leaving a trail of excitement everywhere I went.

I have derailed this post many times thus far and I know my thoughts are scattered but this is the beauty of a blog. Not everything has to be concise and to the point. There must always be room for new things. Live your life with no regret, and realize that you too are a gift. Good, bad, or indifferent.

Namastae

Reality check-emotion/environment/influence

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instant gratification, karma, life balance

Lately I have been looking for instant gratification.  A new material item, iced coffee in the morning, or someone at my beck and call when I need to talk to someone.  It all ties together you know.  I also know why I indulge the behavior.  Here is what I have learned about it.  If you’re doing these things for personal gain, self indulgence, or pure selfishness is it ok?  Why wouldn’t it be?  Other than the fact that it won’t get you further on the path than you already are.  I believe we call it personal R&R.  Sometimes humans need to decompress.  There is a difference between indulgence and destructive behavior.  Are you continuing on a path where life revolves around you and you alone?  Doing for yourself is a very healthy thing.  Taking care of yourself and creating a self sustaining world I may add, is healthy.  As long as there is no expectation of others involved in that world-you’ll be fine.  It is when you live on the expectation of others that you deviate from the path and sabotage yourself with disappointment.

It really comes down to need versus want.  Are you creating and more importantly sustaining an environment to fulfill your needs?  Or are you surrounding yourself with false pretense of wanting continually.  Please do not misunderstand me.  It is good to want things.  It is good to want to achieve and constantly strive for better in your life.  It is only when the wants turn selfish that you destructively chip away at your own foundation.  And if you continue to want selfishly, you end up with no ground to stand on.

Check your emotions, check your environment and check your influences.  These three things are the core of your being.  If you do not have balance in one, then your entire world is off kilter.  These to me are the holy trinity of human existence.  What is the purpose of todays thought?  Instant gratification of course!  You get what you give kids….we know this right?  So be good to yourselves and project what you need or what into the world.  Pay into the 401k on a daily basis, so that on the days you need to take your personal withdrawals, your karma account will always be in balance.

Self love, stew, & salt

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emotions, self-love

Deepak Chopra says that everything good comes from a place of true love from within. Do you have any self validation for that statement? Thoughts? I have also read recently that all the trouble we humans get into is direct cause and effect because of emotion. We are angry hurt or sad, so we lash out at people. We do stupid things out of.. ? Anger [yes], hurt [oh yeah we’ve done this too], and sadness [happens all the time] right? Right..Hmm.. everything comes from within. Manifestation, pure intent, ideas, emotion. All mixed together in a kettle. If you add too much of one thing, the results could be disastrous. You have all of the ingredients you need to create your own world. Now imagine for a moment you throw in a pinch of pity, or a dash of sadness. Perhaps a smidge of smite or a teaspoon of hate. Wouldn’t that ruin the entire outcome? Not unlike salt in any dish, too much of anything can overwhelm you. Take over, and consume your entire intent. Bad emotions are exactly like salt. Bitter and dry when consumed.

Now, after you digest this tasty morsel, ask yourself the next question. Where is the source? What source do all of the bad ingredients come from? Yes yes I know lack of self love. But wait, why does everything have to be about me? I certainly didn’t cause myself this pain or trauma. Oh wait, did I? Conscious choice, free will, and there is no such thing as victim of circumstance.  If there truly was such a thing as victim of circumstance and you are fully whole heartedly in agreement that you were in the ‘wrong place at the wrong time’ and you have come to terms with the demon, why is it you haven’t let it go? Why does it haunt you throughout your entire existence? Silly isn’t it? Why would you carry around that bag of bricks your ENTIRE existence? The bag gets a little heavy after a while no?

My friend phoenixblu always says “build a bridge and get over it”. She’s right you know..get off your ass and build that bridge.