Solitude with Deepak Chopra

I know it sounds like a breakfast cereal. But in circles of faith and wisdom he comes highly recommended. A few months ago in the bitter cold of January I started cleaning out my metaphysical closet. I was giving away books, crystals, and divination tools that I had held onto for years in hopes of following the tao te ching practices of releasing material wealth. Well, this completely opened up my life for new and better teaching materials. My aunt Lorraine gave me two large bags of reading materials, and this book was one of the items. It’s called “The Path to Love” by Deepak Chopra.

I have lost yet another family member within the past few months [this being the third, three years in a row now] and life once again in it’s cyclical fashion is just a bitch. I’m tired of the sadness and grief and burden that death brings to the remaining few of us left here to deal with aftermath. As a result of his passing I have come to the conclusion that mourning is a selfish act. It’s part of human make up, but unless a lesson is learned from it, it will repeat itself in a selfish manner and wear us down. I have chosen not to take that route this time, and I am truly thankful he is gone. No human should suffer with illness. No creature of God should suffer period, even if they deserve it, but that’s another blog in and of itself.

So I am finding myself at another crossroads as far as knowledge and teaching is concerned. This, coupled with past winter blues, and a brief but ever so influential scuffle on a tarot forum with judgmental negative ignorance [your basic board/forum no life post daily trolls] has left me in limbo.

I picked the book back up today and opened it to the page I had left off. This is what it said “Spirituality begins with a vision, but reality doesn’t fit that vision. The path is what brings them together. Most people who want to experience inner growth begin as Nina did, by reading the vast inspirational literature. They become discontented with the distance between their own lives and the enlightened existence they discover in their readings; they start to make a break [hence my vacation]. Yet after the break nothing seems to really change. The haunting insecurity and loneliness, the sense of confusion and conflict are still there. But instead of feeling let down by this “failure”, you need to realize that all spiritual work is done by yourself, with yourself, and for yourself. No one “out there” can take responsibility. It is alright to be aware of the distance between vision and reality, because that is what it feels like to be on the path. If you had no gaps to close, you wouldn’t need the path”.

Well isn’t that just a kick in the ass? I am enrolling myself into an intensive 9 month class for higher learning. Break time is over.

Namastae