Humility versus Humiliation

A few weeks ago I had a client with a really hard reading.  I struggled like I haven’t in a very long time.  Contrary to popular belief, these visions and intuitive words during reading interpretations do not just flow like a river.  We do need to meditate and concentrate on listening to the cards.  But for this particular reading I was in conflict.  So much so I sat there and looked at these cards for at least 3 days.  Normally for a life reading this is not unusual.  The unusual part was the actual interpretation.  While half of me felt the discomfort and chaos of the true meaning, the literal interpretations were giving mixed signals.  So the actual reading itself I felt [and my client] was truly half incorrect.  This did not help her at all.

I am a firm believer in matching the right psychic for your needs.  Some of us will not be able to read for you at all, while others can.  I am not correct in every reading, this is one of the main points before I get too off topic.  The next point was humiliation.  I did feel humiliation because I was wrong.  In direct opposition of my truest intent to help and based on the founding principals of my business and nature, I could not help her.  I was wrong.  This was a source of sadness for me.  I spent several days after wondering what happened and where the lesson was in all of it.  Once I figured out and linked the lesson, I was left to deal with the emotional aspect of it, hence humiliation.

In hindsight, I believe humiliation is way too strong of an emotion to attribute to the reading.  It is a lesson, and the client projected kindness.  I did what I thought was morally and ethically correct for my own purpose, and refunded and restructured the reading with the client.  This gave me peace, and I hope it gave her some as well.  I have downgraded the emotion to disappointment with solid learning and lesson truth, which made me actually feel so much better.   In turn I learned something about my business, my tarot, my abilities, and myself.

Be kind to yourself, remove the ego, and lose the drama.  I have that embedded in my brain now.  And life goes on