Good people have bad days too

I think San Diego, California calls the entire month of June “June Gloom”.  It’s the rainy month I suppose.  The Midwest has been devoid of Sun for months now, stuck under a blanket of cold [below zero at many times], ice, snow, and moisture.  Combine normal weather [normal for us anyway], lack of sun, personal tragedy and hyper sensitivity in the work place and you have a wonderful recipe for depression and disaster.  I had my cards read by 3 different people last night.  A forecast of things to come for April, May and June.  One card readings are always my favorite.  There is no need for multiple card readings as they often deplete too much of my energy when I’m doing inquiries for myself in trades.

So back to my point.  All 3 of these individuals used different decks, but basically pulled the same 3 spreads for me.  April is a time of renewed energy and projects.  May is a time for rest, and June is a time for solitude.  I do need a rest I have a lot going on right now.  There are many important [in my life] people that depend on me.  Getting too big for my britches is commonplace.  I have not learned to separate ego from myself yet.  I am aware, I do strive for it and I go through long month spurts where you will not see it at all.  And yet, in all of my gluttony there it is. The one day I need it least.  It often causes my foot to go right into my mouth!  Mainly at work.

I participate and share this blog for one reason alone.  Well two now that I think of it.  The first is obvious-it is for self expression of ideas.  The second purely and truly is for your own inspiration.  What good is a thought if it cannot be shared?  What purpose does good intent serve if it is not given freely?  None I dare say.  But do not be fooled good people.  I am mean, egotistic, vein, brash, overbearing, controlling and trite!

I spent time in exhaustive meditation last night [because I was too tired to consciously have a thought myself] on all of this.  The reminder I need is this.  No matter how much I try no matter how good the intent, some days I am just a Bitch.  That is it!  I am human.  I wish I was more than just part of the species but I AM human and I am learning.  I stumble, I fall, I get back up and I keep walking.  That is all I can do.  Thank you for walking with me though.  It fills me with pure joy knowing there is at least one other human reading my blog that understands and appreciates the ramblings of this lawn gnome.

Namastae