Personal Demons? Past life regression? Just a simple nightmare OR.. something else..

Moral of the story first to get you thinking-THEN you can read the story that provoked this thought process.

If you think your soul and your past lifetimes are a sole collective of good and pure and godly, you are mistaken. Although I realize that life must have balance, and there cannot be good without bad, it is only this morning that I am making the connection between life, the divine and our very souls. Ask yourselves this question-do you think in all of your reincarnations that you were good? You were pure? You did the right thing? You are gravely mistaken.

Just follow my logic

For the past few months I have experienced a noise in the computer part of my bedroom and I have always felt it was something saying ‘good night’. Fine great, a ghost right? Whatever, I do not have time to feed into a neurosis or fear. [I have also placed into effect a zero tolerance on fear and have been working on this for weeks]. To fear something is no longer logical to me, and I will not carry around baggage I can not hold. I have also been experiencing very vivid dreams. I laugh, I cry I talk I wake myself up screaming. But for the most part, the screaming was from doing battle of some sort. Either with the bad guy or self manifested monster of the day. One by one I have started facing my inner demons, and going with the flow.

As you may or may not know, windows operating system computers have something called stand by mode. This basically shuts off your pc until you hit a key or move your mouse. The only difference is, the power button you have on your pc flashes [and will flash until it burns out] or you start back up your pc, whichever comes first. Let me throw in a SIDE NOTE here. About 2 months ago I woke myself up sitting straight up in bed with my arms straight out to the sides screaming NOOOOOOOO! Now, of course I think this was odd, then again none of what I do phases me, it’s part of the travel when you close your eyes. Okay back to present day. Saturday night I slept very bad. Up and down all night, headaches and nightmares. I was at one point awoken by the pc starting itself out of stand by mode. So here it is, 1:33am and I am awoken by a 17” flat screen blue hue. I sit up and look over. There it is, 5 feet from me, a turned on pc. Okay, $hit happens. Get up, shut it down again, go back to bed. 24 hours later, Sunday night I again have nightmares. Only this time I get woken up by the pc turning itself on I decided to be smart and manually shut the monitor off by hitting it’s own power key. Let the pc turn back on! I won’t be awoken by that dam blue screen again. 4am comes…there it is in all it’s glory, a turned on pc and a turned on monitor. Now that you’ve digested this, I’ll tell you about the second dream. The first dream [when my pc turned itself on] I was mistaken for a shop keep and was being abducted. Poof! Blue screen/woke up.

I was on horseback [white horse] in armor with duel weapons riding through the forest. I come upon a band of multiple men. I don’t know who or what they were, only that they were bad. In some bullshit Gandolf’ean way one of them says “you may not pass”. My answer was “I see” as I dismount. My weapon is drawn, and number 1 comes in for the challenge. He is struck down immediately and in comes baddie #2. At this point I am crunched low to the ground, weapons out and ready to do some crouching tiger hidden dragon move [hey don’t pee in my cheerios it’s my dream okay? LOL] and it looks like your average scene out of a well equipped rumble in Everquest or WOW. As the battle Royall [of which I was most confident I’d kick their asses] was about to ensue, from behind me riding on a chestnut horse was a large muscular what I can only assume was an orc. He was covered in dark red leather from head to toe. I could see his eyes and his hands and that was it. I don’t know who or what he was, only that he was bad. Very VERY bad. I had entertained the thought of taking just him on and knew instantly I could not win. In the blink of an eye I was flat on my back laying next to the horse looking up at these beings. The 2 original fighters backed off. The thing in red said something in a language I did not understand. I gave up and decided right there whatever would happen I wasn’t going to fight it. Well, as it turns out, I was to go with him. I knew who he was [of course I did...”to know thyself”]. He reached down his arm, I locked forearms with him, and he pulled me up onto the horse. At this point the visual of the steed changed from my white to his chestnut back and forth. I bent down and stroked the horse’s mane. Whispering its ok my friend you’ll be fine. But I think I was talking to myself [simplistically speaking of course]. I held my 2 arms out to the sides of me to feel the wind. A rush of freedom came over me and I felt like I could fly. I also screamed GOOOOOOOOOO. I was really happy and content and more importantly knew that I would be taken care of, this is where I belonged. The thing leaned forward [beast, orc, demon, not sure] and said to the horse “ride my baby, ride”. This time I understood it, and we were off.

Was this a continuance of the other night? I wasn’t afraid when I awoke. Was it a ghost? Was it a guide bringing me out? Was it a midnight snack attack? HA!  Did I mention I captured video of my tarot cards moving by themselves as I was reading over the weekend? And yet I am not afraid. Folks, you could not pay me to write this ***t.  And now? We move forward..