Oh, I have people!

I was on the phone tonight with my web designer finishing up the last touches of the new site. We go back many years, so joking commences throughout the conversation. We’re debating page layout and I say to her in jest “hurry up I have people waiting on me dammit!”. She just laughed and told me “you don’t have people”. And we laughed some more. After a back and forth like we usually do I just yelled hurry up! She shrugged me off like she usually does and mainly this post is for her. Don’t mess with karma GL you want some of this!?! {as I laugh hysterically}.

The project

Earlier this year I had attempted a 10 day meditation project. I ended up moving instead, hence no follow up to the project(ed) postings. I will get to it within the next week.

Demonic presence and the balance of life

I was watching a paranormal reality show last night where a young girl had to go through an exorcism. Having had several years experience investigating the paranormal and dealing with dark entities I can tell you flat out, I am no hero. I am no savior, I am no saint and I am not fearless. After a move back to my home town in the Midwest five years ago I attempted to assemble a new team of people with no luck. Everything happens for a reason of course. But last night’s show got me thinking. A pastor was brought in to perform the exercise, family was there, the investigators were there and a well known medium was there. I thought about this poor girl this morning as I awoke. I wondered what ever happened to her. I know that she suffered another attack a month after the exorcism. The demonic relapse [as it were] was so bad she was taken to the hospital. Dark entities not only attach themselves to places but people as well. So all of this has brought me to my current state of mind.

If in fact I had to encounter them again would my faith be strong enough to endure the test? Because that is what they do. Demons and dark entities test your faith. Of course everyone places fear up front and center when it comes to such a topic. But do not displace caution and reality for the blanket of fear. Do not confuse removing yourself from the situation to regroup a sign of weakness. If the forces were to come at me I started to wonder mentally how would I be tested? Would I throw myself on top of them and start spewing religious passage? Would I drown them in holy water? Would I envision the source and try to remove it with divine light? All and everything in your existence must have balance. If there was a way for the demon to enter, there is a way for the demon to exit and not necessarily on his own accord. This leads me to faith. I practice what I preach. I live every day by the same ever expanding guidelines within the universal law that I am most familiar with and understand. Does it hurt to enter a house of God and pray? I believe the ritual would cleanse the soul. We all need our quiet devout time, be it at the coffee table with our eyes closed talking to our God, or kneeling in a church. The point is this, do you practice what you preach?

I make it a very hard rule within this existence never to what if myself or any situation. But the fact that evil or darkness [negative energy no matter how you label it] DOES exist, makes me aware, humbled and appreciative of my gifts and beliefs. So what would I do if the boogie man came knocking today? Keep the faith my friends….keep the faith.

Namastae

You can’t always know who you really are

In this particular space and time, you have but one existence. This personal existence is filled with minutia of day to day living. If you were allowed one thing, a gift in your life what would you choose? Everything has an up and a down. Winning the lottery would create opportunities you would not regularly have available to you. Increased taxes, material wealth, and exposure to the gluttonous side of existence would welcome you to its doors. Material things do not bring happiness. Money does not bring happiness. The experiences from moment to moment are what resonate within our DNA. Would you wish for a flower garden? Or perhaps be charitable and wish away someone else’s illness or remove someone else’s burden. All it takes is one wish verbalized to the universe. But you may not believe it. The law of cause and effect applies in all realms of life. No good deed goes unnoticed, no bad deed goes unpunished. Karma has its own accountants and they are well aware of everything we do, and we wish for.

There is not a day that goes by that I am not reminded of my fortune within this realm. I’m not rich; I don’t have the shiniest toys, the fanciest things, the most comfortable surroundings. But I have recognized that within I carry more than 99% of the people I encounter. Pure joy. I find it in feeding my family and friends, in the scent of the wind or warm water from the shower. Simplicity, humility, graciousness. All of which I must remind myself are the only common goals of existence. Kindness is free kids, share the wealth. I am all over the place today in my post, and I’ve said all of this before so it is nothing new. So why do I keep repeating it? Because one day if only one of you understand it and the light bulb goes on, I will have succeeded in changing the world around me. What are you doing to encourage personal harmony and growth?

Here is the question you must ask yourself before placing thoughts into action. Is it worth the karma? Will I be surrounding myself with healthy ideals and virtues? Do I emit positive energy? Are my emotions in a state of good health or decay? Check yourself and your ego at the door. Everything you believed was your world is really a shred of the tiniest existence of the whole. But even that minute existence has the ability to overwhelm, overpower, and over joy someone else’s being.

Namastae

Daily events versus deep thoughts

There is only so much thought a human can process in the day. Do you agree with that statement? If you do, your interpretation of the world you live in is very limited. Short of caffeine at midnight it should be easy to keep yourself awake pondering the mysteries of life.

I have no great prophecy for you today. The seasons are changing and as we arm ourselves with warmth and comfortable surroundings [as much as we can that is] getting ready for a cocoon period I am reminded that time waits for no one. What have I failed to achieve this year that I wished to do?

Did you have a check list? Have you done anything about it? The road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Namastae

There are no accidents in this life

Sunday afternoon I received an email from someone I had not seen or spoken to in 11 years.  Time changes people for the better or worse, but one thing is certain and time just like the weather always changes us.  What I once knew is no longer in existence.  What I now know given the brief window [yet again] is that I appreciate my life and what I have accomplished thus far.

I have discovered within the last 5 years that when something bad happens to me, I wipe it from my memory like a hard drive.  It is also the reason I have no memory as a child.  My mother was divorced when I was 3, and my earliest recollection of childhood was at around age 8.  The same standard holds true for old friends that have come and gone through the years.  But one very distinct gift has shined through every time.  I was given yet again the opportunity to see two people who were once my entire social world.  And I have to tell you, I’m not sure what karma gift train I got on this weekend but I am loving the ride.  Everyone has grown up and experienced so many good and bad things throughout the past decade that it’s literally shaped them into different people.  Except the fact that John still won’t let me touch his hair LOL.

The point is this, love who you are, love where you are, and more importantly it’s okay to not know where you are going but really know what you need from the world.  How is the universe going to bring you love if you lack the love and respect you won’t even give to yourself.

Ever thankful,

Namastae

Sometimes Time Stops for us..

Last night I was walking in a downtown suburb, eating gilato with family, enjoying a cool breezy evening. I looked across the street and there was someone I used to know many years ago. His physical appearance had not changed. But behind him was a wagon with 2 small children in it. I knew instantly they were his. I was awestruck as I watched them walk down the street. Even though we had not parted on good terms I felt the love and happiness he expressed as he walked and talked with his family members through the streets. It was a gift! I dare not spoil the moment by yelling his name or interrupting his outing with family to say hi.

Imagine the cosmos giving you a rare glimpse of people that have come and gone throughout your existence here. If you could view it through a window or a crystal ball, would you appreciate that chance? I am more thankful that I was overwhelmingly happy for him than anything else. Not only was I given a rare opportunity, I am aware of the gifts within that also enabled me to feel what he was feeling.

Life is good..

At the end of every day

We know that we’re not going to put down the piece of chocolate cake, or spend 15 extra minutes meditating, clearing out the closet for good will, or getting that massage.  At the end of your day sit in a quiet place in your home and look around you.  Is it cluttered? Are there pieces of mail piled up everywhere with piles of clothes in corners and dishes in the sink?  Are there kids/pet toys everywhere and have the dust bunnies multiplied so many times that marry maid refuses to come and clean?  Now that you’ve taken a look on the outside let’s work some balance into the mix.  Close your eyes and ask yourself the following questions;  Do I remember what I dreamed last night?  Did I hum in the shower just once?  Did I smille in passing at work today because I had a funny thought in my head?  Did you start the day with “I should have stayed in bed”?

Maybe you should have.  What do you think you have that vacation and sick time for at work? Are you so delusional that you think the business could not run without you?  Do you honestly have that big of an ego?  They do not need you.  They can fend for themselves.  The kids and the pets?  They do not need you.  Someone will always be there to help you with them. Who needs you?  YOU need you.  It’s time to face facts.  So rinse your face with some cold water and take a long hard look at that skin you’re wearing.  You get one chance in this life.  Fix it now. START now.  Take the vacation days.  Go nowhere, do nothing, it doesn’t matter.  What matters is, you start having conversations with YOURSELF and start appreciating who you are and everything you do and EVERYTHING you want in this lifetime.  That stupid [yes I said it] STUPID fear you carry around like a 10lb cell phone in your back pocket is doing nothing for you.  Make the decision, make the call, send the email, DO IT.  You are of no use to anyone in this life unless you can start evaluating honest dialogue with yourself and creating a world within your 4 walls that makes you happy instead of regretful.

I would have, I could have I should have.  These words should be banished from existence.  Life happens when you’re not looking.  Open your eyes friend, it’s all right here.

Namastae

Todays question..something to ponder for yourself

Today was a more important day than most others I supposed and it is a rare moon indeed when I ask my own cards questions. Tonight happened to be one of those times. In response I pulled the Success card.

This is a good news card that indicates after a lot of hard work and difficulties; you are now beginning to achieve the success you dreamed of, one that is recognized by other people. This can mean that you have gained some qualifications, a promotion at work, have won a race you trained for, had an exhibition of your paintings or have performed your music in public to general acclaim. Spiritually this is the flame that warms and nurtures and although it can lead you into the realms of pure joy, for though the spirit must sometimes be tempered by hardship, it must also be kindled by ecstasy.

I do not need acclaim or recognition. What struck a chord within, was the message of spirit. “for though the spirit must sometimes be tempered by hardship, it must also be kindled by ecstasy.”

Usually when something goes right for us, we are humbled, appreciative and happy.  I think I’m going to have to do a little more soul searching to kindle with ecstasy.  I’m usually only blissfully happy in those moments of linear time when the wind hits my face, the sun comes out from the clouds, the rain pounds on my window to say hello or the warmth from a fire reaches my legs.

Life is god…<that was a typo, and yet somehow nothing is an accident>…

Namastae

Todays food for thought

There are three types of people in your world.

1. People that avoid you because they do not want to deal with you
2. People that help you
3. People that hurt you

Make a list of everyone you know on a sheet of paper. Then categorize each one. Where do the numbers stack up? Environment, influence and emotion. Everything comes in a trinity. Where and when does your own self love come into play?